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lyrics

I can’t sleep
When I’m all alone
’cause I hear a shriek
That holds like a drone
It’s a constant hum
Piercing through my eardrum
And it’s all because of you

And often in the middle of the night
I find myself unable to close my eyes
You filled an ocean of guilt and pride
Just to leave me there to drown
I try my best to rationalize
So I treat my self-destruction as an oversight
Spent a month looking for comfort
In fake stimuli that never worked
Found myself punching mirrors
I couldn’t bare to see my reflection
You made me jump
You made me jump
In the waters
When I didn’t know how to swim

Oh I’m drowning, oh I’m drowning
And the seaweeds are entwined around my ankles
I can’t feel my feet
I can still feel the taste
I can still feel the smell of your waters
Deep down in my mouth
It comes back and it fucks me up
I cut my cheeks to turn them into gills
But nothing works
Nothing ever works
That’s what they told me

Nothing ever works

And it never ever heals
The wounds will stay with me
I wish you knew that it hurts
I wish you felt a quarter of what I feel
I want you to face it
Face your work
Face your lust
Face your waters
Face your work

And sometimes live a lyric will pop to my head
And I pray to God to never sing it again

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from Stared at from a Distance, track released September 19, 2023

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